Reminiscing.
I just watched a video clip of someone’s baby’s first year footage, and I started crying. This is a person and baby whom I have never met, and it wasn’t brings-a-tear-to-my-eye crying but more like near sobbing. I think it’s partly because I am very sentimental about Falco’s birth and first days, and I get very sad when I think about how poorly we documented that time. Seeing the video of that woman holding her newborn immediately after delivery makes me wish so badly that we had recorded that with Falco. I can never get that experience back, and I feel like we have so few pictures and videos, especially of the three of us together. We were so caught up in the excitement and chaos that we just weren’t thinking about photo ops.
Also, I just can’t believe how fast the past year has gone. At the same time, it seems like forever ago that Falco was a helpless little newborn. I can hardly remember what he was like then, and when I look back at his old photos it’s hard to believe that it’s him. Take this one for example:
Is that really my child? Now he’s about to be a toddler and soon after that he will be walking and talking and dating and moving out and not calling anymore. It’s enough to make anyone cry!
Laura said,
November 16, 2007 @ 5:12 pm
Hi Andi, popping into see more cute pictures of Falco. Aah…I used to not be a crier, but I think giving birth changes all that. I cry at people’s delivery photos, I cry at births on TV, etc. Some of it is sentimental, and maybe some is cathartic. We have almost no photos of the week Anya was born (mostly because the nicu didn’t feel like a very happy place to take pictures), but I do regret that. In fact, I think I more than made up for in the months after with my zillions of digital photos!
Isn’t it hard to believe they were ever that tiny?